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Re: I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #150 on: November 19, 2015, 11:10:40 PM »
no, I just meant the issue is more about using religion to control behavior...which is what is was invented for...

Don't forget about the money. Churches make coin...tax free.

Maybe we should start our own... Praise be to MV

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« Reply #151 on: November 19, 2015, 11:17:31 PM »
Don't forget about the money. Churches make coin...tax free.

Maybe we should start our own... Praise be to MV

Good point...I have a theory that much of our problems in society are those who would rather steal a bushel of wheat rather than sow and reap it...why? because it is easier to steal than farm..

How can you steal?

1. Force (theft or illegitimate tax)
2. Manipulate (religion, fraud, sympathy)
3. Manipulate free markets (wall street)


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« Reply #152 on: November 20, 2015, 01:16:54 AM »
people who think being gay "is a choice"... that's just such an illogical take on the matter.  in most cases, that's their religious predisposition talking, i think.  after all, who would want to go through the trouble of being gay?  it fucks up friendships, family ties, threatens employment in some cases, etc. etc..  as an example, does anyone think NB's life has been pleasant recently in the context of his "choice?"  talk about choosing the path of most resistance.  gay people are born gay.

I'm a Lesbian.  Just ask any chick.  Do I get an 'Amen! PBS?


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« Reply #153 on: November 20, 2015, 01:19:03 AM »
Good looking lesbians are awesome, the others not so much.

Fuck you.  I am beautiful. 


Re: I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #154 on: November 20, 2015, 01:22:32 AM »
But some people ARE forced.



This is a real book

How do you know these things?

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« Reply #155 on: November 20, 2015, 03:49:17 AM »
Just my luck. It's 3am and the nurses here at the crisis center are listening to Snorry on the radio.

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« Reply #156 on: November 20, 2015, 03:52:55 AM »
Just my luck. It's 3am and the nurses here at the crisis center are listening to Snorry on the radio.


See, irony is everywhere.

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« Reply #157 on: November 20, 2015, 04:03:38 AM »
Just my luck. It's 3am and the nurses here at the crisis center are listening to Snorry on the radio.
Hey. Glad your still with us.

At last it was Linda Moulton Howe.

She laughed at the monkey video.

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« Reply #158 on: November 20, 2015, 04:04:42 AM »
Don't forget about the money. Churches make coin...tax free.

Maybe we should start our own... Praise be to MV
Phase 3 Profit

Re: I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #159 on: November 20, 2015, 06:49:41 AM »
But some people ARE forced.



This is a real book
Seriously what are you going to do when a dinosaur gets thrown in the mix.
As for good looking, you would never know I was gay unless I told you. I look like every other post goth, heavily tattooed chubby/curvy chick out there who is a red head. Actually I think it's pretty easy to find out what I look like given my real name is known and I am in the middle of promoting my book and podcast. I am no diesel dyke sir.

And bateman disregard my early question about your avatar, that is a man as a woman.

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« Reply #160 on: November 20, 2015, 06:52:19 AM »
I'm a Lesbian.  Just ask any chick.  Do I get an 'Amen! PBS?
A dude in a dress is not a lesbian sir. Your beard is showing.

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« Reply #161 on: November 20, 2015, 07:18:29 AM »
Just my luck. It's 3am and the nurses here at the crisis center are listening to Snorry on the radio.

Glad you seeked help. Please keep checking in with us.

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« Reply #162 on: November 20, 2015, 09:27:15 AM »
Just my luck. It's 3am and the nurses here at the crisis center are listening to Snorry on the radio.
"it's 3 am and Snoory's on...
I'm in a hospital bed reading bout asian porn"

sung to golden earings "twilight zone"

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« Reply #163 on: November 20, 2015, 10:46:10 AM »
Just my luck. It's 3am and the nurses here at the crisis center are listening to Snorry on the radio.

    More implausibility.

    Or is this part of the comedy act you're honing?

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« Reply #164 on: November 20, 2015, 10:51:09 AM »
I'm really surprised by how many here this jerk has taken in. 

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« Reply #165 on: November 20, 2015, 11:01:52 AM »
I'm really surprised by how many here this jerk has taken in.

     Getting attention was the goal and he got it. Suicidal ideation as bait. Terrific.

     I thought my karma was bad.

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« Reply #166 on: November 20, 2015, 11:26:27 AM »





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« Reply #167 on: November 20, 2015, 11:29:47 AM »
     Getting attention was the goal and he got it. Suicidal ideation as bait. Terrific.

     I thought my karma was bad.

A long time ago, when dinosaurs and AOL foraged the land for food and water, there was a chat room filled with maybe sixty or seventy assholes calling themselves writers.  Over a period of two years, one beloved member of the group painstakingly revealed her ongoing fight against cancer, providing detailed chemotherapy side-effects, etc. 

Then she died of the cancer. The group was shocked, despite knowing the end was coming. It was tragic.

Then she came back and revealed she had been lying. For two goddamned years, simple words, such as "Gotta go. Not feeling well.  Had chemo today," had elicited a group response.

There are pranks and there are bizarre fucked up pranks.  Some were hurt or sad that she had done this.  Many were extremely angry, having shared with her their actual losses due to cancer.  Every regular in the group believed it.  It had gone on so long.  Everyone was fooled.

Less than three months after the big reveal.  She really WAS dead.  Verified.

And the C.O.D. was NOT from cancer, suicide, accident, or natural causes.

But that was a long time ago, when dinosaurs and AOL foraged the land for food and water.

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« Reply #168 on: November 20, 2015, 11:34:00 AM »
Far back in time, when dinosaurs and AOL foraged the land for food and water, there was a chat room filled with maybe sixty or seventy assholes calling themselves writers.  Over a period of two years, one beloved member of the group painstakingly revealed her ongoing fight against cancer, providing detailed chemotherapy side-effects, etc. 

Then she died of the cancer. The group was shocked, despite knowing the end was coming. It was tragic.

Then she came back and revealed she had been lying. For two goddamned years, simple words, such as "Gotta go. Not feeling well.  Had chemo today," had elicited a group response.

There are pranks and there are bizarre fucked up pranks.  This angered many in the chat room who had believed it.  It had gone on so long.  Everyone was fooled.

Less than three months after the big reveal.  She really WAS dead.  Verified.

And the C.O.D. was NOT from cancer, suicide, accident, or natural causes.

But that was a long time ago, when dinosaurs and AOL foraged the land for food and water.


Wow. I remember that. I stopped in on occasion from the Artists Chat. I was working in NYC Theater at the time, conversed in there with fellow writers for stage. Wouldn't be surprised if we chatted with one another in there, Cam.

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« Reply #169 on: November 20, 2015, 11:45:05 AM »

Wow. I remember that. I stopped in on occasion from the Artists Chat. I was working in NYC Theater at the time, conversed in there with fellow writers for stage. Wouldn't be surprised if we chatted with one another in there, Cam.

It's also possible I bumped into you in the Artists Cafe and talked about my learning to carve lino blocks for printing.

I had made this amazing transition - from using a simple hand tool that gouged/scalloped - to using a powerful Dremel Tool with a ball bit/grinder.

So I would sometimes cross over to Art chat. Especially if I had grown weary of GARYMARKBE.

Heh.


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« Reply #170 on: November 20, 2015, 11:46:12 AM »
A long time ago, when dinosaurs and AOL foraged the land for food and water, there was a chat room filled with maybe sixty or seventy assholes calling themselves writers.  Over a period of two years, one beloved member of the group painstakingly revealed her ongoing fight against cancer, providing detailed chemotherapy side-effects, etc. 

Then she died of the cancer. The group was shocked, despite knowing the end was coming. It was tragic.

Then she came back and revealed she had been lying. For two goddamned years, simple words, such as "Gotta go. Not feeling well.  Had chemo today," had elicited a group response.

There are pranks and there are bizarre fucked up pranks.  Some were hurt or sad that she had done this.  Many were extremely angry, having shared with her their actual losses due to cancer.  Every regular in the group believed it.  It had gone on so long.  Everyone was fooled.

Less than three months after the big reveal.  She really WAS dead.  Verified.

And the C.O.D. was NOT from cancer, suicide, accident, or natural causes.

But that was a long time ago, when dinosaurs and AOL foraged the land for food and water.

     The pathology fascinates me. My neurosis and Cat-lick guilt will tell me "if you tell people you have cancer as a gag, then cancer you shall receive. Of the penis". The exploitation of others feelings etc, is just sinister. I hope her body was defiled by a lusty morgue attendant.

    *I did pretend to have a tapeworm on Metal Sludge. Forgive me.

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« Reply #171 on: November 20, 2015, 11:47:12 AM »
Fine, in future no matter what anyone says I'll immediatly pronounce them to be a liar. Obviously I'm lying when I say this.

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« Reply #172 on: November 20, 2015, 11:50:28 AM »
It's possible I bumped into you in the Artists Cafe and talked about my learning to carve lino blocks for printing.

I had made this amazing transition - from using a simple hand tool that gouged/scalloped - to using a powerful Dremel Tool with a ball bit/grinder.

Many bounced back and forth. At that time I wasn't a full time painter. Primarily working in theater and there was always more intriguing discussion (on the rare moments) when writing a script, seeking a lit agent, workshops, dramatist guild, etc were discussed. Artists Cafe was mild and filled with crafty types who paint wooden geese dressed in plaid bow ties.

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« Reply #173 on: November 20, 2015, 11:51:08 AM »
Here's my discharge papers, for anyone who doesn't believe me.


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« Reply #174 on: November 20, 2015, 11:54:16 AM »
Less than three months after the big reveal.  She really WAS dead.  Verified.

And the C.O.D. was NOT from cancer, suicide, accident, or natural causes.

But that was a long time ago, when dinosaurs and AOL foraged the land for food and water.

That is a messed up story. Amazing that more than one BellGabber was on that chat all those years ago...interesting...

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« Reply #175 on: November 20, 2015, 11:56:42 AM »
Here's my discharge papers, for anyone who doesn't believe me.



     Discharge being a proper word about all of this.

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« Reply #176 on: November 20, 2015, 12:00:31 PM »
Fine, in future no matter what anyone says I'll immediately pronounce them to be a liar. Obviously I'm lying when I say this.

Reported.

Maybe.

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« Reply #177 on: November 20, 2015, 12:02:45 PM »
"it's 3 am and Snoory's on...
I'm in a hospital bed reading bout asian porn"

sung to golden earings "twilight zone"
Ha!  Love it.  A sure hit.  Art can play it as a bumper.  I can hear him chuckling now.

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« Reply #178 on: November 20, 2015, 12:08:35 PM »
Here's my discharge papers, for anyone who doesn't believe me.



I believe you, Neffy. Mind if I call you Neffy? Anyway, in the field of life/Bellgab, there is shit and there are flowers. Ignore the shit. It's useless. Draw inspiration from the flowers . I can't believe they are letting you out already. WTF? I had a coworker make an attempt at her life a few years back and she was in hospital for a month. What provisions have they made for your treatment? Are they medicating you? Make sure the medications they give you don't increase the suicidal ideation. Many do. Also, will you be staying with your sister? It may also help to speak to others in the transgender community that have gone through or are going through what you are. There is no reason that you should not have a support group.

http://www.hrc.org/topics/transgender?gclid=Cj0KEQiApruyBRCFqoDu1pbk9rkBEiQAF8EFdb_XiJP9ipNON5xmZ_WpUTF8kwVNXQTZVQtNq8zNpD0aAh058P8HAQ

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« Reply #179 on: November 20, 2015, 12:13:32 PM »
That is a messed up story. Amazing that more than one BellGabber was on that chat all those years ago...interesting...

I sometimes wonder if there are others here from those early AOL groups, and that I might have spoken to so long ago.   

But Chine is the first verified connection!  No proof we talked then, but from what she said, we might have crossed paths as far as being present in the same room at the same time since she recalls the prank event.