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I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #210 on: November 20, 2015, 12:59:56 PM »
I never had AOL, but my friends said that was very effective for meet-ups...GeoCities had local chats, but hardly anyone even used them...I actually never met anyone from a chat/thread until BellGab...
I met a few and it was great back then. I am going to meet several folks from Bellgab. Bellgab has been awesome to me.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #211 on: November 20, 2015, 01:00:06 PM »
He still has a future. With any luck is isn't to wind up like you.

     Suicidal yesterday, ok today!

     How was that ride you were taken for? I wish the Hillside Stranglers picked you up. Then again, you were probably 46 in 1977, so they would have let you be.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #212 on: November 20, 2015, 01:12:05 PM »
    If he told them he was suicidal, they wouldn't let him walk out.

    "Can't believe" indeed.

   

Believe it.

In AZ, my ex-wife, took a bunch of pills. She then called a friend, who called 911. Ex-wife was taken to ER. The Doctor there asked if she was still suicidal. She said no, she was home two hours later.



I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #213 on: November 20, 2015, 01:13:39 PM »
     Suicidal yesterday, ok today!

     How was that ride you were taken for? I wish the Hillside Stranglers picked you up. Then again, you were probably 46 in 1977, so they would have let you be.

All I'm seeing is projecting, Eddie. Who hurt you? You aren't this insecure for no fucking reason.


I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #214 on: November 20, 2015, 01:15:37 PM »
Good God, I am just now noticing that I misread the posting from yesterday.  I thought NB lived in Austin, not that he was named Austin.

So my whole shtick about making the jaunt to Austin the city to hang with MABUSE was completely irrelevant.

Christ.

i saw your "austin" post, and i did, indeed, shake my head in shame at your poorly informed contribution to the thread.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #215 on: November 20, 2015, 01:16:22 PM »
All I'm seeing is projecting, Eddie. Who hurt you? You aren't this insecure for no fucking reason.

At this point in the game, the only person you should be reflecting on is you.

I don't know what put your life into a shit spiral. Yesterday, you suggested ending it all, now you want to fight with someone. Do you see a connection there?

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #216 on: November 20, 2015, 01:18:02 PM »
Believe it.

In AZ, my ex-wife, took a bunch of pills. She then called a friend, who called 911. Ex-wife was taken to ER. The Doctor there asked if she was still suicidal. She said no, she was home two hours later.

   That's negligence pure and simple and pathetic.In Massachusetts, the word suicidal generally leads to a 48-72 hour committal. I forget the exact number of the code but if the declare you a "555", you're stuck there under heavy observation.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #217 on: November 20, 2015, 01:18:47 PM »
i saw your "austin" post, and i did, indeed, shake my head in shame at your poorly informed contribution to the thread.

BellGab is not the best therapeutic option...

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #218 on: November 20, 2015, 01:19:09 PM »
All I'm seeing is projecting, Eddie. Who hurt you? You aren't this insecure for no fucking reason.

   Look who recovered! Wow, yesterday you were toe tag bound, now you're mothafuckin Freud.


I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #220 on: November 20, 2015, 01:19:34 PM »
I sometimes wonder if there are others here from those early AOL groups, and that I might have spoken to so long ago.   

But Chine is the first verified connection!  No proof we talked then, but from what she said, we might have crossed paths as far as being present in the same room at the same time since she recalls the prank event.
My AOL Screen name  was Jeritol

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« Reply #221 on: November 20, 2015, 01:21:12 PM »
I don't know what put your life into a shit spiral...

Well, he is living in Idaho, for Christ's sake. Have you ever been to Pocatello?

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« Reply #222 on: November 20, 2015, 01:21:14 PM »
My AOL ID was Jeritol
HAHAHAHAH Is this true? I was kittyzrkewl back in the day.

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« Reply #223 on: November 20, 2015, 01:21:48 PM »
Bellgab has been awesome to me.

we'll have to fix that.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #224 on: November 20, 2015, 01:22:05 PM »
At this point in the game, the only person you should be reflecting on is you.

I don't know what put your life into a shit spiral. Yesterday, you suggested ending it all, now you want to fight with someone. Do you see a connection there?

His life is more shaky than Queen Latifah on skis.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #225 on: November 20, 2015, 01:22:50 PM »
All I'm seeing is projecting, Eddie. Who hurt you? You aren't this insecure for no fucking reason.

Just kill yourself you fucking idiot, otherwise you spend the rest of your miserable life having your oh-so-noble descision thrown back in your face every second you're awake. It's like the opposite of "it's a wonderful life" where you're constantly aware of the trail of destruction you've left in your pointless wake. Plus the people you're trying to spare from grief aren't worth sparing. Good luck!

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #226 on: November 20, 2015, 01:24:07 PM »

     Go to the crisis center early Saturday morning so you can hear:

   

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« Reply #227 on: November 20, 2015, 01:25:39 PM »
Just my luck. It's 3am and the nurses here at the crisis center are listening to Snorry on the radio.

tough break, kid.  I got no other words for that.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #228 on: November 20, 2015, 01:27:06 PM »
HAHAHAHAH Is this true? I was kittyzrkewl back in the day.

Yep. And I am in two FB groups from the AOL chat rooms, mainly pay attention to the FOBW one.  I met probably 50-60 people from that room and I am still friends with several from around the country.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #229 on: November 20, 2015, 01:27:36 PM »
Seriously what are you going to do when a dinosaur gets thrown in the mix.
As for good looking, you would never know I was gay unless I told you. I look like every other post goth, heavily tattooed chubby/curvy chick out there who is a red head. Actually I think it's pretty easy to find out what I look like given my real name is known and I am in the middle of promoting my book and podcast. I am no diesel dyke sir.

And bateman disregard my early question about your avatar, that is a man as a woman.

What have you got against us?  What have I ever done to you? 

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #230 on: November 20, 2015, 01:28:03 PM »
     Suicidal yesterday, ok today!

 

That's right, because that's how it works sometimes. Suicidal people don't walk around being suicidal 24/7. At a moment of weakness, they may make a tragic decisions. And you don't know that he is "OK" today. He may not be "OK" for a while. Geez, are you always this keen to show others your ignorance?

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #231 on: November 20, 2015, 01:28:36 PM »
A dude in a dress is not a lesbian sir. Your beard is showing.
But I self identify as a Lesbian.  Why would you deny me that?  What did I ever do to you.  That you didn't like.

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« Reply #232 on: November 20, 2015, 01:29:03 PM »
At this point in the game, the only person you should be reflecting on is you.

I don't know what put your life into a shit spiral. Yesterday, you suggested ending it all, now you want to fight with someone. Do you see a connection there?

Anger and depression are two sides of the same coin.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #233 on: November 20, 2015, 01:29:29 PM »
What have you got against us?  What have I ever done to you?

You led a happy life. Probably microaggressed someone or two. Fucker.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #234 on: November 20, 2015, 01:31:02 PM »
It's also possible I bumped into you in the Artists Cafe and talked about my learning to carve lino blocks for printing.

I had made this amazing transition - from using a simple hand tool that gouged/scalloped - to using a powerful Dremel Tool with a ball bit/grinder.

So I would sometimes cross over to Art chat. Especially if I had grown weary of GARYMARKBE.

Heh.

Bernstein.  That you?

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« Reply #235 on: November 20, 2015, 01:32:11 PM »
Just kill yourself you fucking idiot, otherwise you spend the rest of your miserable life having your oh-so-noble descision thrown back in your face every second you're awake. It's like the opposite of "it's a wonderful life" where you're constantly aware of the trail of destruction you've left in your pointless wake. Plus the people you're trying to spare from grief aren't worth sparing. Good luck!

What do think has been on my mind this entire time? My mind always goes "yeah you should have killed yourself a couple months ago. That way you couldn't fuck up everyone's life like you always have."  Best case scenario right now is my parents disown me, and honestly I deserve it. Killing myself would have been a cowardly decision. Better face this shit like a man, for lack of a better term.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #236 on: November 20, 2015, 01:33:15 PM »
Bernstein.  That you?

You're in the wrong timeline. It's Berstain now.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #237 on: November 20, 2015, 01:34:17 PM »
What do think has been on my mind this entire time? My mind always goes "yeah you should have killed yourself a couple months ago. That way you couldn't fuck up everyone's life like you always have."  Best case scenario right now is my parents disown me, and honestly I deserve it. Killing myself would have been a cowardly decision. Better face this shit like a man, for lack of a better term.

I've been disowned. There are worse things.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #238 on: November 20, 2015, 01:34:25 PM »
fuck off

That hurt.

Most definitely reported.

I'm going to blow my fucking brains out once and for all.
« Reply #239 on: November 20, 2015, 01:34:27 PM »
Autism and "triggered" posters. Welcome to BellGab, where internet faggotry is always at it's finest.