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Random Topics / Re: What are you listening to now?
« on: Today at 05:51:57 AM »

Radio and Podcasts / Re: Kingdom of Nye With Heather Wade
« on: Today at 05:01:22 AM »

Random Topics / Re: Music
« on: Today at 04:40:38 AM »
August cannot come soon enough.


Random Topics / Re: Music
« on: Yesterday at 12:50:57 PM »

Technology / Re: Windows 10
« on: Yesterday at 12:31:29 PM »
lost in a bouncy house

waving a pool noodle

Hardcore anal fucking’s fine. Tongue kissing is gay.

Radio and Podcasts / Re: Ground Zero with Clyde Lewis
« on: Yesterday at 12:15:52 PM »
Clyde’s cheating on his diet.

Random Topics / Re: Random stupid things on your mind. Post them.
« on: Yesterday at 12:10:11 PM »
Very “get off my lawn”.

Well, let's say your avatar is a costumed, damaged, plastic doll.  I guess my conscience might let me respond, then.

It is. I'm sorry its so abhorrent to you. It'll change, in time.

No psych wards, but I worked in an alcohol/drug rehab hospital (half of them are crazy), and we accepted mentally ill patients.  Boss was a sociopath, does that count?  I was hoping a patient would face criminal charges after she offered me $500 to take a check to her dealer.  But the hospital just treated it as a counseling issue.  One of the counselors trembled with fear of dim rooms, when the power went out for an afternoon.  The real psycho there was a visiting dog that tried to take the neck off of a patient.  The patient's injuries were grave, but after being transported to another hospital emergency room, he did survive as far as I know.

I don't think I'd be very good in a psych ward.  First of all, I believe in remote neural monitoring and synthetic telepathy.  So, it would be awkward at best, even if I kept my views to myself.

You seem to have had so many experiences in your life. I'm fascinated by your beliefs in neural monitoring and synthetic telepathy, and would be keen to read more about them. If you have any further information on these 2 aspects of treatment, please share it.

I understand why you'd keep those views to yourself, however. But I have to say, I personally think you'd be good in a psych ward (from following your other writings).

I took care of a schizophrenic who was stable on Abilify, in her home.  Whenever she wanted to talk about schizophrenia, the topic was about her journey to get help, not her disease.  She said she wanted to be seen as a person, not a disease.  She lamented that her schizophrenia messed up the childhoods of her three loving adult children.  She surprised me by describing her worst schizophrenia symptom as anxiety.

Hallucinations are a side effect of some medicines which older people take.  Not very many people realize that.

Schizophrenia is one of the most stigmatized and widely misunderstood diseases - by the general public. Was she on a high dose of antipsychotics? I can appreciate the woman's focus being on her journey to mental stability, rather than its afflictions. Its an awfully debilitating illness.

Yes, in many schizophrenics, their anxiety is off the charts ... the curious part is that, the disease presents dissimilar symptoms in different patients, which is why diagnosing the illness can take many years after those symptoms have worsened tremendously.* Unfortunately, getting on medications at the early onset of the disease is usually far more effective than later on, even though its more often than not diagnosed far later. Schizophrenia is only partially treated and managed with medications, and often worsens anyway, even if to a lesser degree.

*I've found its helpful to think of the term "schizophrenic" as more of an umbrella of interrelated mental afflictions, as opposed to a hard-and-fast definition of one.

I've lived with numerous mentally ill people.  People used to insist (in whispers) that one of my parents was insane.  They made a good case.

Recently, I lived for a year as a renter in a private family home, where there was a brain-damaged and mentally ill woman my age, an autistic semi-retired man, a elderly woman with dementia, and an alcoholic who spent quite a bit of time in black-outs.  There is a thread in this website about the drama somewhere.

A couple times when the family went out to dinner, I took hot baths.  Both times, when the family got home, the mentally ill woman tried beat the bathroom door in.  Even though we had two bathrooms.  Not sure what triggered her.  She also stole 33 bars of my bathroom soap.  Never found them.  Grandma even checked the trashes and the girl's room.  At Christmastime, the soap stealer gave me assorted soaps for my present.  I asked her if she was going to steal them.  She said yes.  So I threw them away.  It really hurt her feelings.  Imagine that.

I'm sorry to learn about your childhood, and of some of the people you've had to share a roof with. This life is cruel, and we who are poor have to endure a lot more psychological stressors than the average joe.

In the past, when my living situation was worse than it is now, I recall also sneaking in to the tub for a hot bath while housemates were out. It sure takes the edge off!

I cared for a very elderly woman with dementia.  Her grandson had been convicted of conning her out of HEAPS of money over 5 years.  He did prison time, because he said the money was for survival but actually it was for drugs and prostitutes.  He got out of prison, but was starting in again on her.  His process was a little dramatic, but he wasn't getting very far because I was there a lot.  Someone placed a rubber bullet shooter (looked just like a pistol to me, heavy, with battery-operated parts and a real trigger, but an orange tip) and a six-shooter in places I would find them.  I'm not sure if he sent someone to try to intimidate me by displaying weapons, or if someone else put them there in case I needed them.  I also found a star-shaped throwing knife.  I debated keeping these weapons, since the lady said they weren't hers.  But I turned them over to the lady's new guardian.  In the end, the grandson was busted again, for violating court terms by asking the grandma for money.  Well, she wrote him a check, even though I reminded her several times it would violate his court terms.  Of course, he signed and cashed it, and he got prosecuted all over again.

I've always found it incredibly sickening when young people take advantage of the elderly for financial gain - usually relatives taking their own blood for everything they've got. There's a special place in hell for those types!

Out of USA is fine, just over 18 and I think at some point they verify your phone number with a text to it.


Random Topics / Re: Random stupid things on your mind. Post them.
« on: Yesterday at 05:14:50 AM »
The aforementioned was a random, stupid thing on my mind. So I posted it.

Nobody stood up for you when you were abused. So now you make people stand up, and walk away from you all over again. That's really not fair to you or us.

"And when we were good
You just closed your eyes
So when we are bad
We'll scar your minds"

- The Fight Song

[Y]ou are opening yourself up to liability, since your self-expression appears to indicate you committed a felonious act, whether true or not.  If you want to do literary art here, then start a prose thread, or at least label your work ("poem"), or give your work a title.  Sometimes people here use different spacing or lines to indicate their work is art, too.

TRIGGER WARNING! Hypothetical:

If I were actually into torturing animals, I don't think I'd hurry online to publish said act ... I'd probably keep that kinda thing to myself.

The description and image inflict trauma on me and anyone else who is sensitive or who has rescued animals, been in FEMA disasters, survived horrible abuse, had to watch someone die of horrible abuse, been a first responder, worked in ER, fought on a battle field, lost a loved one under horrible circumstances or combinations of such. Have some respect.

For the record, I'm an animal lover. That being said, I have no qualms about slaughtering livestock for sustenance. Minimizing any amount of prolonged suffering associated with the act has, and always will, be a priority to me.

In any case, I think you're being dramatic. I've apologized to you before, but I'm not about to change my avatar because it isn't to your liking. Believe it or not, that does pain me, but its the principle that matters here.

I respect you as much as I can a stranger - on the internet.

Don't push so hard, this isn't EllGab.

Politics / Re: EXPOSÉ: Fascist Green Bastard!
« on: Yesterday at 03:57:56 AM »
Why don't you explain what's funny about it so the rest of us can have a laugh?

Exposing you was enough. My job here is done.

Random Topics / Re: Ask Jackstar Anything
« on: Yesterday at 03:52:45 AM »

Random Topics / Re: Random stupid things on your mind. Post them.
« on: Yesterday at 03:50:03 AM »
"DOG FOR SALE: Dead. Covered in stab wounds. No paws. Wouldn't shut the fuck up."

Azzerae, did you post this?

I did.

Would you please change your avatar?

Unfortunately not. I firmly believe in the right to express oneself, perhaps to a fault.

While I'm respectfully not prepared to answer all your other questions, in your heart, just know, I don't inflict physical harm on any living thing - without provocation or threat of death - nor do I intend to. However, we should be free to use our language or artistic panache to do what we wish (that includes offend, at times).

doll sure has a lot of teeth.

its likeness is more apropos then you'd imagine

Radio and Podcasts / Re: Mike Vara Reveals the Truth about DMDN?
« on: Yesterday at 03:13:59 AM »
Open Letter to


Random Topics / Re: BREAKING: DigitalPigSnuggler Fesses Up?
« on: Yesterday at 03:04:49 AM »
"double anal"

Clients with severe dementia have tons of dementia-induced character issues which can be extremely hard to work with. Confabulation, passive-aggression, unappreciativeness, hyper-criticalness, and so on. But, most of it is the disease of effects of the disease. They often are, basically, being impossible. Sometimes the best I can do is remind myself I'm working with someone who has protected status and who may have the mind of a very strong, experienced three-year old, and proceed accordingly.

The handful of traits you mentioned above are all things I've witnessed, absolutely.

I'm curious about your work as a carer. Did you tend to any psychiatric wards in particular, and do you have any anecdotes to share?

Random Topics / Re: Ask Jackstar Anything
« on: May 19, 2019, 12:29:02 PM »
I was unaffected by the effect within hours.

Then you're one of the lucky ones, Jack.

TD is said to have no cure, and can worsen progressively even once the quietiapine is stopped.

« on: May 19, 2019, 11:39:36 AM »

I could use $5. Is participation restricted to the US?

Politics / Re: Azzerae Tortures and Kills Pets
« on: May 19, 2019, 08:26:23 AM »
The closest I've come to torturing an animal is swatting a fly.

Jackstar gets it.

Politics / Re: Falcon Punch Abortion
« on: May 18, 2019, 01:04:53 PM »

Politics / Re: Azzerae Tortures and Kills Pets
« on: May 18, 2019, 09:56:56 AM »

Politics / Re: Azzerae Tortures and Kills Pets
« on: May 18, 2019, 06:31:59 AM »
I love the smell of butthurt in the morning.

Radio and Podcasts / Re: Kingdom of Nye With Heather Wade
« on: May 18, 2019, 02:34:33 AM »
I only liked a handful of bands from that era.

Politics / Re: Random Political Thoughts
« on: May 17, 2019, 02:20:25 PM »
Why are you still breathing?

Only faggots don't breathe.

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