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Quote from: ACE of CLUBS on February 15, 2021, 04:14:44 PM
Pathetic and sad . . . . living your 'meaningful' life on a website posting 'meaningless' videos.  Keep your post count up . . it's important.

You're on the very same website, tailing me at every turn, triggered by my every keystroke.

Quote from: ACE of CLUBS on February 15, 2021, 11:32:08 AM
. . . . keep your post count up, fascinating videos.

Get my dick out your mouth. Have some self respect.

Myself and my best friend constantly talk about our future plans. To buy a piece of land, in an isolated area, without droves of people polluting the airwaves with the noise of modern life. I'd be lying through my teeth if I told you that I can comfortably exist around the average man, without wanting to put a bullet in his head. I've debated - with myself - many times, whether or not the violence with which Ted Kaczynski sought to illustrate his point was warranted. My first inclination is to say no, of course, hurting or killing others is wrong. Period. But then I get to thinking, violence is the only language certain people understand.

To me, it is just as much a tragedy that Ted Kaczynski was locked away as it is that those he decided to go after lost their lives, or in some cases their limbs or eyesight. But I myself can empathise, to a large degree, with what it is Ted wanted, and what he ultimately got for it. A lot of people would consider him a terrorist - to this day. And its easy for me to sit here and dismiss such a claim out of hand, rationalising in my own mind why he did what he did.

Think about it. Ted, in his hey day, was an example of everything the American government couldn't stand. I would wager that his self-sufficiency was the very thing that make him so hard to catch. No running water. No electricity. A little cabin, filled with soot, old books and handmade bombs. The degree to which Ted went out of his way to not leave a trace of evidence in any of the packages is mind boggling. Let's talk about his psych eval, then. Paranoid Schizophrenia. Boy, do I know that bag. 'Who could possibly live this way?' Only a nut, surely. One of the saddest parts of all that unfolded was the fact that Ted, although most probably was/is mentally ill, it just goes to show you how much of what Paranoid Schizophrenia really is is not delusional thinking. The government was hot on his trail - or at least that's what they thought - with teams of people analysing his writing, the language used in his typed up letters, and in the end, an entire SWAT team hid out in the woods close to his cabin, in order to capture him, put his on trial, and lock him in solitary. How much of that, I ask, is a conspiracy, or make-believe? Very little of it. He most certainly broke the law, and no one is above the law, is he? But whether or not Ted created the very world of what can only be described as a Paranoid Schizophrenic's, remains to be seen. There were many out there in the rest of the world who were working together tirelessly to foil his plans. That is in no way able to be disputed. And technology, and how fast it is and continues to develop has lead to worldwide suffering. If more people took the time to stop, breathe and live in a more meaningful way (instead of ramming junk food down their fat throats, blasting carbon monoxide into the air while they rush around on their fat asses in their big trucks, to wherever it is they feel the urgency to go) perhaps the world would be a better place. But how can you see any merit in a loon posting packages of explosives around America at random? Well, I can see the merit in this supposed loon's manifesto. I definitely don't live as frugally and 'off the land' as he did - but I do hope to in time. See, its the principals Ted was prepared to live by that fascinate and inspire me. He once said to his brother David that smart people have a sadistic streak. And I most certainly do, too. But and still, how do you separate Ted's philosophy from the bombings, and taking of innocent life? That's the thing, though. We are all complicit, pretty much. We all trudge on day in and day out, serving the machine, being the cogs, and for all our protestations to the contrary, we are more depressed and defeated than we ever have been. Cars didn't bring us only convenience, they brought on sloth, and greed. Money makes a man get up on a Monday morning and punch in - not because he wants to have to suck up the abusive corporate environment he's been conditioned to tolerating and participating in, but because man fears death - and no money, no life. Then, of course we get all the trimmings of this capitalist pleasure-jail: fast food, a flashy wardrobe and keeping up with the Jones'. I don't care how many times you try to tell me that you're happy sucking up what you've become accustomed to sucking up every day, lying to my face is not the tragedy in this scenario. Lying to yourself is. What would you be, if you didn't have to scrounge and save every cent you have to just exist in this world? Most people can't even answer that. The stats on psychiatric illnesses have skyrocketed in the past decade. Its been an unprecedented uptick, and no small feat. This is what your false sense of security has lulled you into accepting. You're telling me that having to go to therapy, to talk to a stranger, and swallow meds in order to perform is something you're okay with? Of course you're okay with it - those tranquilisers take the edge off, make you feel like the horrific prospect of sitting at a desk in a cubicle for the rest of your days is something you can now stomach. And the minute you start getting antsy again, don't worry, the doctor will find a stronger, more effective drug. Anxiety and depression wouldn't be so prevalent today if more people were living in line with their lives true purpose. I'm on medication. I am by no means a wealthy man, and even on my meds, I can't seem to fit in the round hole as a square peg for more than a few weeks at a time.

One day, when I get that piece of land, and I leave the world as I now know it, I'm guessing it'll take a month tops, till I'll be able to ditch those pills and start living my life. And in a sense, that's all Ted ever wanted. But he made a couple really stupid moves. And each of them involved the slaughter of his fellow man for ideas that seemed at odds with what he was about. At least that's the way I see it, anyway.

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Quote from: Tootsie on February 15, 2021, 05:43:39 AM
My best to you and your relationship with Grapefruit.

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Quote from: Silphion on February 12, 2021, 09:50:36 PM
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➊ David Rubini started his own forum, Rubinigab,
  to promote his own program, service his own ego, and attack his perceived enemies,
  but, primarily, because no other forum would possibly continue to tolerate him.
  Megatrolls, such as Metron and Zaza, who have long been banned elsewhere, joined Rubini
  in hateful, abusive and defamatory postings, directed mainly towards BellGab members.
  RubiniGab was filled with doxxing, revenge porn and miscellaneous pornographic images.

➋ And then, the majority of the postings on RubiniGab were gone;
  the inference being that some legal action may have enforced this.

➌ Bart Ell (or, as KSM suggested, might have been someone impersonating Bart Ell)
  posted multiple images of BellGab posts related to Jackstar and SpaceMeowMaid.
  Abusive and accusatory commentary was added by Bart Ell to these postings.
  Liberace (or, as might be suggested, someone impersonating Liberace)
  also posted multiple images from BellGab related to Jackstar and SpaceMeowMaid.

➍ MV aka Liberace has been MIA for months, so I openly questioned Bart Ell on EllGab.
  The result was that my avatar was removed, my screen name was altered to be derogatory,
  and multiple self-incriminating, vulgar posts were made impersonating me,
  whereupon, I was essentially banned. (Note the EllGab Registration Agreement.)
  KSM has since affirmed (although he would probably now retract) that Bart Ell
  was responsible for these actions, which in no way, absolves complicity by KSM.

➎ And then, all the postings by Bart Ell and Liberace on RubiniGab were gone.

➏ Rubini, himself, began posting more bitter, vulgar and accusatory material,
  directed towards BellGab, but, primarily, SpaceMeowMaid on BellGab.
  But came the next day, and the embarrassing series of Rubini posts were gone.

➐ A real world Protection Order against Rubini was heard in court on February 10.

Do you have a job?

Quote from: SpaceMeowMaid on February 13, 2021, 10:36:03 PM
you aren't that fat

Quote from: ACE of CLUBS on February 13, 2021, 07:25:52 PM
Your befuddlement has nothing to do with me.  Maybe your avatar reflects your self-image. Nice nonetheless. 
Pick up your post count . . . you don't want to fall below 75+ per day.

Y'know, it really cuts me up that a stranger on the internet doesn't like my posts.

ʟɪꜱᴛᴇɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴏᴡɴʟᴏᴀᴅ

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Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 01:46:43 AMI bet you are nice to hug. Somebody once told me I was like holding a bag of golf clubs.

Yeah, I'm nice to hug. But I'm still a fat sack of shit, at the end of the day.

K. Dubb, what is your opinion on "beards"? Men who marry trophy wives as a cover for their closeted homosexuality.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 01:06:34 AMEvery lean ounce is the product of discipline and self-denial, ancient virtues that have lately gone out of fashion.

You make a fantastic case for taking better care of ones physical vessel. I guess I am very cerebral in my approach to existence, and so, my body feels like a temporary place of residence - knowing my spirit lives on, its hard to care too much about this fleshy container.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 01:06:34 AMIf I am to err, let it be on that side of the balance rather than the weakness and self-indulgence that is apparent at a glance!

Its just sooo easy, after a long day, to say fuck the chicken breasts I was gonna grill. Screw that salad! I'm gonna order a fuckin' pizza!!!

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 01:06:34 AMBut you are more than your picture, and I will always love you whether your tummy rests on your knees or no.

Thats sweet. But, being a huge nerd, a bibliophile, and essentially having a "desk job," drawing pictures (sedentary all day) hasn't helped the situation. PLUS this cocktail of psych meds, that make it impossible to lose anything of excess.

The most I get from daily workouts is not gaining fat. Just staying the size I am. I'd rather be sane and chubby bunny than nutso and svelt, though. Its a choice I've made.

I've been on medicine for years now. I had Epilepsy before I became Bipolar, and essentially, both those meds and the psych meds balloon you up like a motherfucker. With the way I live, sometimes, I wonder why I'm not muuuch bigger than I am.

Luckily, my gut does not HANG over my pants. Sure, I have a layer of fat on my belly, but its sorta like I have a thin layer of fat evenly distributed throughout my entire body, rather than a concentration of flab in the stomach region.

Weight on ones face is the most embarassing. But I learned I neat trick (I can't remember where). It goes like this: when posing for a photo, stick your neck out slightly, forward. Pretend there's a lemon under your chin. It instantly eliminates the appearance of a double chin.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 12:53:02 AMYes bunny I know what it is like to avoid photos and mirrors because I couldn't bear to look.

Dude, in all seriousness: you look great. The problem with self-hatred is that no matter how many compliments you are given in earnest, the intense dislike of oneself remains. But try go easier on yourself. I worry where you'll wind up if you don't. It'd be a pity to see you in a psych ward. Anorexia - in medical circles - is considered the worst of all mental maladies! I hope you know that.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 12:53:02 AMI am a believer in personal vanity and taking control of my body, to me it is absolutely therapeutic, the very wellspring of happiness and confidence.

Just don't take it too far. Thats all I ask. I worry.

Quote from: Silphion on February 12, 2021, 12:40:15 AM
We can assume it was either you or him.
You can pass the stick back and forth then.
Both complicit as far as I'm concerned.

Are you legitimately pissed at these people? I always thought you were above this kind of thing.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 12:38:04 AM
[KSM is] hot and [has] nice muscles...

His muscles are too big - IMHO. But at least he doesn't have a gut dangling over his belt, I guess. We all need love, y'know. Even us amorphous blobs.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 12:34:07 AMI have struggled with body image ever since I was a kid, scrawny, awkward, terrible posture, always picked last...

They preferred fat kids? This world is backward in the worst ways.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 12:34:07 AMCan you imagine [being told that] the sight of [your] body makes [someone] sick?

Yes! Us sweat hogs can, and do experience it too (in certain circles). I saw a photo of myself taken at a braai just last week and was mortified at the sight of my own appearance!!! Selfies taken with the utmost care, and a Tinder profile curated by oneself can make anyone look and feel "normal," whatever that is, anyway.

Quote from: K_Dubb on February 12, 2021, 12:28:30 AM
bunny 💓💓💓

So much love, for such a dandy little lion!